Play hard. Eat hard. Drink hard.

Eat. Drink. Play.

Enjoy life to the fullest and be merry!

That's what I've been trying to do to help save myself from this deep hole that I've had fallen in.

I've been going out quite a couple of times this past few days and partying with my mates till dawn. And this is something new for a person like me. An introverted-people-hater-home-loving-computer-addict-girl.

I've been drinking hard and drowning my self with alcohol. Trying to forget about this shitty world were living, all my fucked up problems and my sucky life.

I had told myself before that I would never be that type of person who has a bottle of vodka as her bestfriend. That kind of dude that resorts to alcoholism to escape. Unfortunately, im starting to be the person I much abhore.

AND IT SUCKS!

No matter how much I don't wanna end up to be that person, I can't help myself cause it's the only way for me to still hold on and hope that tomorrow is still worth living.

Right now, I'm just trying to find ways to enjoy things despite all these mess that I've gotten into. I just wish that I won't totally change into that awful person that i hate.