UNCERTAIN

UNCERTAIN

one word to describe how I feel right now.
Im torn between two things. And I'm not even sure whether I should entertain this feeling. Is choosing between the two even an option?

So confused, so puzzled, life's in topsy-turvy. This uncertainty even makes me doubt myself.

Is it just me, or do you feel the same?

Maybe I'm just fascinated with all the attention I'm getting from you, but damn all this mixed signals you're sending! or was there even such things? or is it just me assuming that there's this possibility?

Am I in love? obsessed? or infatuated?

So many questions I need some answers. Hate that I'm not used to these things. Never did it occurred to my mind that I would be caught up in this situation.

Everything is so hazy. I don't even know what's right or wrong anymore.

All I know is that...

I love everything about you. Your flaws, your assets, everything. I love the way you scrunch your nose. The messy way you eat. Your corny jokes. Your laugh. Your voice. EVERYTHING! I wanna spend my every second with you. I wanna capture all these moments and see your every expression. I want to know everything about you and hope to remember every detail. All I wanna do is make you happy. Cause when you smile, I smile. As long as you're happy im fine, seeing you smile and being with you for some time is enough for me. I want to replace all those bad memories you had in the past with fun memories we would be making together. I don't want you to cry, cause your tears would bring tears to my eyes and seeing you sad would just kill me. I wanna feel every pain your having just to know how much it hurts and I'll be the one who would cure all those wounds and bring the sunshine back in your face. And the last thing I do before i slumber is to look at your angelic face hoping that when I woke up you're the first person I would see.

And now I wonder if I ever cross your mind cause for me it happens all the time. Ever since you cast your spell upon me, I can't take you out of my mind and heart.

Damn this feelings! I hate that I miss you, cause it only makes me realize how much I like you!