Its been a while..

Its been exactly 15 months and 26 days since the last time i made a blog post. I even forgot that i have this shit. Well mainly because I only used this blog for my English class blah blah blah..

Anyway, a lot has happened during the past year and 3 months. People got hurt and cry. People laugh and had a great time. People got caught and bailed. Couples broke-up as continents drift apart. But apart from everything else, everyone learned from what had happened. It made everyone stronger (well at least that's what i think), looking back.. I somehow miss those days.. The days when all i do is enjoy myself, no responsibilities, no commitments, just me having fun. Learning how to drink booze and play cards with my hommies while watching them gamble. Go shopping and malling with my girlfriends. Sleepovers and late night parties. Endless food trips and tours while trying out every possible sport or game we could ever think of with my dear friends, no matter what it takes. It feels like i have all the time I need, to do all the things I want. But somehow all that has to end.

Right now, I'm starting to feel the pressure, the pressure of growing up. Responsibilities are coming in one after the other, too much paper work and shits!, So much to do so little time! It feels like I don't even have time for myself. All my life i never felt pressured about anything at all, cause I don't really bother myself of over thinking stuff. But that won't work anymore, there's a lot of things to finish and when I try to think of all my deadlines and the like, it just wanna make me stop for a second and think. Think of all the choices I made. Was it for the better? It makes me ponder and consider all those WHAT IFs crap that people are talking about.

what if i chose to pursue that instead of doing this? what if i did what other people had told me? what if i stopped all these things they called nonsense? what if i set my priorities straight? what if i gave up something i love over something that's right? what if…

Life's full of bullshit uncertainties and puzzling questions and we can't do anything about it but to live with it and enjoy life as its is. Cause all these hardships is what makes life worth living. Its like a roller-coaster ride filled with ups and downs and later on you'll reach the loopdy-loops that gives thrill and climax to this ride we're on called LIFE.


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Peace out!,

Julirose ♥